Monday, March 30, 2009
really
really sick and tired.honestly, i dunno how much longer i can hold out.
it's just so so different now. or is it just me? uurgh.
there's hardly a time, none in fact, when for that moment, just that split second, when i can stop worrying about my grades.
Is this what life's meant to be about?
The constant stresses that keep me balancing on the edge at all times?
it's probably just a matter it time before i fall over. and who knows how long it'll take to pick up the pieces if that happens.
i keep warning myself that i cannot take the risk of slacking, but i'm not working hard enough. not by my own standards, neither by that of others.
ALL i want is a taste of enjoyment in life.
Too much to ask for, it seems.
i wonder why life's like that. the ups and downs are driving me mad. i'd puke sooner or later from this motion-sickness.
if only... time could've come to a stand still last year.
if only... things went back to what they were before.
if only... i could have someone to cry on right now...
&let the music play on
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Lot's of hw, but no mood to do. But no shows to watch either. Aft 霹雳MIT other shows don't attract my attention as much and the reason's quite obvious=P
trying to get my holiday(i dont care i still wanna call it a holiday!) plans sorted out. dont get me wrong, im not planning when to do my homework. im planning where to shop and when to go out=D retail therapy, as olh puts it. ahhahah.
ytd's GP lesson was interesting. we pulled out chairs and ms yim conducted lessons at the back of the hall. Reason: it was raining so we couldnt get to block P. cant wait for the new premise to b ready. looking forward to the convenience rather than the layout, cos i dun expect much of the latter.
i think im gonna bake some stuff this break, just that i cant decide what to bake yet.
&let the music play on
Thursday, March 5, 2009
i must say it's been disappointing. not all, mainly maths. cos i lost one fifth of my marks to careless mistakes. can you believe it?!! so i could have gotten 80%, but i got 60%. im finding it terribly hard to forgive myself... vented it out into a poem which i left in e sch com lol...
anw i must say i'm pretty elated abt my chem results. never expectd to get an A. to think it's my only A when i thought i'd get a U grade for it... and econs was really surprising too. I nv expectd to fail despite not finishing e paper, but when i realised tt so many pple were failing, i thought it'd b a gone case. and tks said he saw a relation bet those who only studied the day b4 and their results. i didnt even dare to raise my hand that time lahh!! but rvgg own... hahah. me, veron, isabel and phyllis all topped our classes for econs. though it's all B grades, at least we passed!!=D and i passed bio too so going to sch td wasn't a bad choice after all... i cheered up abit, not tt i've forgiven myself for my math blunders yet...
and i was late for sch today!! buses are hardly reliable. actually, nothing is. urgh. just rly upset tt e bus driver refused to move...
wonder if we'll get back GP paper tmr. wonder how i'd fare for it. but i've left everyth in the hands of God, and i've done my best, so i'll just chill=)
&let the music play on
