honestly, i dunno how much longer i can hold out.

it's just so so different now. or is it just me? uurgh.

there's hardly a time, none in fact, when for that moment, just that split second, when i can stop worrying about my grades.

The constant stresses that keep me balancing on the edge at all times?

it's probably just a matter it time before i fall over. and who knows how long it'll take to pick up the pieces if that happens.

i keep warning myself that i cannot take the risk of slacking, but i'm not working hard enough. not by my own standards, neither by that of others.

ALL i want is a taste of enjoyment in life.

Too much to ask for, it seems.

i wonder why life's like that. the ups and downs are driving me mad. i'd puke sooner or later from this motion-sickness.

if only... time could've come to a stand still last year.

if only... things went back to what they were before.

if only... i could have someone to cry on right now...